What to do?!?

“I have so much to do that I shall spend the first three hours in prayer.”

 Martin Luther

One of the girls from India from Sarah's Covenant Home whom loved to pray.

Coming back to Nicaragua, I want to do so much. I love being able to work in ministry for children with special needs. This week, we went to different rural communities to visit homes and encourage parents and children with special needs. Many of these families believe that their child is not capable of learning, or is just afraid of facing failure.

However, I feel like I face more than changing the mindset of people about children and people with special needs, and highlighting the potential that these children actually have! There is much more I want to do! There is poverty; poor education system; overlooked children like orphans, children with special needs, or children living by the dump; women facing injustice; hunger for discipleship.

I am not super woman, but I desire to be like the Son of God who gave himself to touch and speak love to all these people during His ministry time. I want to be involved in visiting more community to enhance awareness that children with special needs really are God's children; I want to go to orphanages to support the kids with special needs; I want to teach English to women rescued from prostitution; I want to lead discipleship bible studies to new members of our faith family; I want to somehow be a voice for the children not receiving the education and support they deserve.

Yesterday, as I was telling my dad all I want to be involved with, he kindly reminded me of Luther's quote. Yes, there is a lot of need everywhere you look. It is a broken world, and God desires His Kingdom to come in this broken world. And He wants to use us as His ambassadors, as broken vessels to help with the transformation and restoration. However, "you need to make sure you leave room to be with the Sovereign One."

He shared of how when he graduated from seminary, he wanted to preach all the time. He compared that to how I am feeling. God convicted me through my dad's work in reminding me to remain in Him, to pray without ceasing, to seek His Kingdom first.

I don't know how Jesus did it. Ministering with love and patience all the time, and still getting away from the crowd to pray to His Father. I need to continue to let Him teach me. That way I may rely on Him, and when, in His timing, He leads me to be involved with those different ministries, it will be His strength. . .and not mine. I am willing, but in the process, I need room for Him teach me to be more like Him.

What must I do. . . seek to serve, but most importantly, seek Him first through prayer.

I found this quote from Corrie Tan Boom: “Is prayer your steering wheel or your spare tire?”

I need to ask myself that every day. I really want my relationship with God to be my steering wheel. I fail, but His mercies are new every morning.